力不從心

老弟去了雲頂﹐留下我一個孤零零地守在店里。
回家的路上﹐全巴生交通大癱瘓。
老爸在車上說﹐近年來都受盡了老媽的壞脾氣﹔反之﹐ 老媽又向我大吐苦水﹐
讓我的心情漣漣起漪﹐
淚水還會不聽使喚的留下來﹐
哭﹐不能解決問題﹐
但我能做什麼?!
兩老的互不相讓﹔兩小又惹多生事﹐
每天的吵架問題都是一樣的﹐
難道你們不悶嗎?
嘴裡說很累但是還是不停的找話題來吵﹐
還是你們想有一天其中一人遠離你們才會閉上你們的嘴啊?!
如果真的能成全你們﹐我甘願為那片魚肉﹐任你為所欲為﹐
每一天我盼的是家里人高高興興的﹐
光這一點﹐我看還真的要了他們的命。
老爸說等我學成歸來﹐就是他讓他的生命永生的時候﹐
倘若這成了事實﹐這家也會散了﹐
老媽終日苦面向對﹐
一位有病的人還有多少日子﹐10年對他來說簡直就是恩賜了﹐
過去的讓它過去﹐如果你認為他的現在的一切都是報應﹐
難道他不會後悔嗎?!為什麼還要在每一次都斗嘴都為了老問題﹐
要是覺得負擔重了﹐節儉啦。。
老爸還沒有患病的時候﹐他應該都沒有不允許你不開冷氣吧?!
每個星期就那麼一天啊。。。
我時常都在想﹐如果有那麼的一天﹐
有人賞識我願意以高價的薪水但必須遠離家裡﹐
我會欣然的接受。。。
如果你們想更早當寡婦或則孤哀兒的話﹐
我真的無話可說﹐
現在我每一年的生日願望﹐新年願望都是希望可憐我﹐
讓我家的兩老和和氣氣﹐
讓他們有這個福氣看到我們三個成家立業。。。
老天爺﹐我的心聲﹐
您可否聽見了?!


遠在西方的外公外婆﹐可不可以救救你孫女啊??
她快倒下了。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
每晚的眼淚都伴著她入眠。。。。。。。。

1- 2009/2010

Result for 3rd semester released last night.
The result I have got is expected.
It's in my expectation for this semester. No harm.
I know it's has come t0 the time I need to work hard for the coming semesters.

结婚是幸福的

两个人可以在一起共结连里是百年修来的缘分，
看着别人幸福的结婚照，
百般滋味用上心头，
此情此景，
每人献上最美好的祝福，
但愿他俩执子之手，与子皆老。

未来的数十年才是真正的开始...........

21 young adult behavior

I remembered I posted this question in my facebook : What shd a 21 young adult behave??
This question came into my mind after I read : My dear Andrea.
A boy turninh to 21st years old soon but he was far away separated from his mother and his mother decided to understand a first 21 years old friend in her life where he's trying to know his mother from the beginning.

Sometimes, I wonder why most of the Asian parents cant communicate with their children. Their words are more in ordering than advise or encourage.
When I flashed beck my life in the past 20 years. I'm so glas I was staying with my grandparents since my kindergarden until the day she passed away. Her leaved had caused a big change in my life. I have to move back to my own house which I'm not familiar with. I had to leave a house where I stayed for 12 years which fulled with my memory and move in MY House.

My parents had never experience babyseat a baby from age 0 until 12 years old because fatty bro and me were take care of my grandmother. When the time we move back to own house, my fatty bro already went into primary school so they missed the developing stage of two children then they faced super duper lot porblem in educating my youngest brother. He's the most headache person in out family even my father also cant control him at this age. He's only 12 this year. You can just imagine how 'good' his behavior is. PArents don't understand they keep using the same method in educationg the three childred which were borned in different stage of environment. Lately 80's, early 90's and lately 90's.

Three children with different background ( especially technology environment), develope in different background. The latest a child was born the more complicated a child minded is. Sometimes, I was wondering what food they ate when they were in growth age?! Why are they so different from us?! This question I wished a professionist could help me up.

Being a parents we must learn as well. We learn to educate our child, educate them based on the environment. As I always said : Only environment can make a man change , a man cant change the environment'.

The situation in my family, I don't know how to help because I'm not being a parents yet.
As a sister for him , I'm already complete as a role model.
As a daughter in a family, I already try my best to make my parents proud of me.

I hope as a wife n a mother in the future, I will try my best do not let this situation happen again in my life because I don't want my life being repeated again.