Friends

Sometimes I just wonder am I too rude to everyone?
My point is to those I'm not close with?!
'Close'
What's the meaning of close?!
I'm try to pull down certain people but in university,
there's no friends among the people,
at least until now, No.
We only can categorize those 'friends' as coursemates, schoolmates, unimates,etc.
But I never delined that I have some good friend in my tertiary school life.
They know me very well just like my 3 buddies in my hometown.
They advise, guide and encourage me several times,
They gave me confident and courage to overcome my obstacles,
They were besides me whenever I need them,
They don't judge a person by its ' look',

Certainly, some of the people in uni, they used their beauty to attract people's attention,
even though, they really have their ability,
but some part of their were build upon their beauty and the wealth they had.
Maybe my perception is wrong, maybe I'm prejudice to certain people right now.
Maye I could get a tight slap from certain people, but I don't care because if you did means you are admitting yourselves as one of them.
I found that people is better don't tight to close to each other,
too close will encounter more problems....
problems will diverse our relationship..

It's better, stay away from crowd and breath above the others..

Tired?! Read it!! You will understand!!

當對所有的事累的時候...〈寫得很好〉

「飛人」麥克喬登退休了，成為震驚全球的新聞，

耐吉的股票大跌，NBA 的陣腳大亂，

許多球迷都掉下了眼淚。

喬登也濕了眼眶，

尤其是當他看到自己的23號球衣被高高掛起時，

更以手遮面。

但他還是堅持地退休了，理由很簡單--

「雖然我體力還很棒，但是我的心已經疲累不堪。」

想起一位大陸的跳水名將，從小接受國家的栽培，

在世界比賽裡摘冠，眼看未來五年、

十年，可能都是她的天下。

才二十歲，她卻說要退休了，理由跟喬登一樣--
「我的心已累。」

大陸的溜冰名將陳露也是如此。

1995年，她拿下世界花式溜冰賽的冠軍，96年又拿下亞軍，

然後因為腿傷，成績一落千丈。

幸虧隔2年，在冬季奧運會上她又拿到了銅牌。

她高興極了，因為她早已打算在那次奧運之後轉為職業溜冰手。

那面銅牌，是她在體育界的謝幕之作。

至於那次的金牌得主，美國的李頻絲姬不也一樣嗎？

「我不要再參加這樣的比賽了，我要跟爸爸多聚聚，

溜了十幾年，比了十幾年，我累了。」

另一部戲的男主角，在外面偷情，

太太找到他，要他自己決定，

是選那個作攝影師的情婦，還是選娘家富有的妻子，

男人跟著老妻走了，只對情婦淡淡地說了一句話：

「我累了！」

人都會累，也都會喊累。

我的女兒，碰到學校功課多，前一天睡的晚，

當天下午又有才藝課的日子，總在晚飯後說她累了。

我自己，年輕時能下午文章、晚上畫畫，

仍然精力充沛，

現在卻只要下午寫篇文章，晚上就要喊累。

我那91歲的老母，更常喊累，

說去公園走一下，就累。

說朋友都死了，好累。

說「活著，真累」！

常想，我女兒、我自己，

與我的老母同樣說「我累了」，

其中卻有多大的不同？

孩子累，是身體累。

打個盹，喝瓶可樂，可能就不累了。

青年累，是工作壓力的累。

當工作完成，壓力解除，就不累了。

老年的累，是對人生的累，

拖著一個「臭皮囊」，走過幾十年的歲月，

該看的都看了， 能玩的都玩了，

不再好奇、不再激情，

他們的那句「我累了」，

是對生命失去了興趣。

人生的累，說不定也像旅行。

出發時興緻勃勃，一路有說有唱；

幾天趕場下來，

開始有了疲態、有了病號，

遊覽車上就少了歌聲，多了鼾聲。

漸漸旅行要結束了。

翻開行程表，最後一天的節目是

「上飛機，回到美好的家。」

每個人都會興奮地說：「好極了！要回家了！」

可是往前想想；

如果那麼想家，當初何必花錢出去旅行？

往後想想；

如果只有回家好，

為什麼待上一陣子，又會想出去走走？

人的一生，

就是在醒與睡、累與不累之間。

也彷彿是機器，要不斷操作、不斷保養，

不斷生產，也不斷加油、不斷供電。

直到有一天，

把那電源拉下，不再推上去，人生就結束了。

記得有一次去看一位病危的老將軍。

「我沒病，也不會病死；如果我死了，是累死的。」

老人家在病床上沙啞著說：

「病死，多慘？我打了一輩子的勝仗，

為什麼要在最後輸給病。

所以我是累死的，我只是累，累就要休息，

那不是被勒令從人生退休，那是我主動請辭啊！」

話說完，沒多久，他就死了。

喪禮上，沒人哭，大家都說他活的太累了，自己走的。

很欣賞這老將軍的哲學。

有一天，我走，

我也是因為累了，

寧願高高興興地回到我溫暖的天家。

我相信，在家待一陣子。

我又會心動、行動-參加另一個生命的旅程。

男朋友說：

我每天這麼辛苦的工作，為的還不是咱們的將來？

我每天的工作壓力已經這麼大了，

為什麼妳就不能多體諒我一點兒？

我也想多陪陪妳呀，

可妳能不能也多想想咱們的未來呢？

女朋友心裡想，每天下班就是聽你抱怨公司的事情，

難得休假出去玩，

還得分擔你對收假後未完成工作的憂慮，

眼前我都快忍不住想跟你提分手了，

你竟還在那兒大言不慚地同我談未來？

～取自生活周遭～

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努力找到自己生活上的平衡點，

輕鬆快活地過一輩子，

不只是一個夢想，

也是對自己與人生的責任！

自己不幸福快樂，

又怎麼能讓別人幸福快樂呢？

臉上沒有笑容、或者是滿嘴抱怨的人，

就算再怎麼犧牲付出，

真的能夠讓別人打從心裡頭幸福快樂嗎？

每封信都代表一份緣的傳遞.......
看信是一種幸福、它代表你有空閒..

沒空看信也是一種幸福
它代表你有比看信更重要的事忙著..

Another trip!! Kundasang!!!

Car Broken down!!

Sun rise at 5am!!!

Hot Spring view..!!

Rafflesia!!!The biggest flower in the world!!

From left: min yin, frankie, me, jun,jing

KK mountain at 6pm from the fresh market!!

KK mountain at 6am from my hotel!!

The first sun rise in my life..!!

the flower seems so small on my hand!!haha

Hot spring!!here we come!!

Another Snape!!

Our hotel!!gals on the left, guy on the right!!

p/s: I'm satisfied with this trip!! Even though some accident happened!!
I wish to go travel with you guys again!!!

Kelly Bay

I went for Kelly Bay from 18 and 19 August.
Photos will show everything!!
p/s: I hope we can gang out together next time!!

Recover from Sorrow

Thanks for all the concerns on the last post. It took me long time enough to recover my heart and drag my attention back from emotion. School blocked msn since last 2 weeks. So now, I only can use msn when my roommate is out for dating then I can borrow her broadband. She is kind enough to us. The feeling is so good if you can online in your room!! The feeling is just like you are at your own house..!!

I might not update that frequent from now onwards because I will be busy with assignments and activity and examssssssss!!!!!!!!!!!

Cant wait to go back on September..!!!!

p/s: I met Alex last night, he gave me a birthday suprise!!
My favourite vella wine ( 5 litles)!!!whahahha..thanks alex!!!

sorrow

It has been more than a year I had studied in Sabah. From all these times, I had came through a lot of obstacles but I'm glad that there's always a bunch of friend crossed over those difficulties with me. Things became so different until I called up my brother on Sunday night. He was a lone in his room. I was talking to him especially in his academic. He might lost his chance to continue his studies if he failed to achieved average marks in his final examination. I know it has become his pressure after he failed in his mid term.

Once I asked him about our family. He told me his opinion which has dragged me into the deep sea. I have lost my concentration during the whole monday morning and I decided to watch a movie after class. I'm silly enough thought that I can overcome this problem easily but I couldn't. My brother who is always think about my parents told me that : HE WANTS TO LEAVE THIS HOME FOR FURTHER STUDY!
What he's trying to convey is he want to stay at hostel instead of home. I was shock with his words and I cant figure what has make him came to these minded. But I told him if you really want to leave this home please put effort in your academic and look at me. I can leave the house with praised and proudly. He remained silence.

I had realised the seriousnessof my brother so I decided to tell me mother. I tole her please appreciate with what you have. You have a good son who didn't ask for more, who is obedient all this while. If he has this minded which means he will do it once he is ready. I don't kow what happenned to my father who is blind with al his kindness. Dad wasn't always care what happenned to my fatty brother. Even myself can feel the unfairness between two brothers, what you exect my fatty brother to react?! pretend blind or deaf all the time?! Even he tried to ignore those unfairness, human will collapse onve they have reached thier optimum tolerate.

Mum cried in the phone with me last night. I can't bare with that dissappointed that my mum faced in this family. I wanted to help her but what can I do?!nothing!!! I can only give her courage from here. She is been feeling so tired all these time but she stay strong for us. She put all her hopes on my fatty brother and me. I know I musn't fail her.

At these time, I must encourage my brother to keep up his work in study and always bring the good news to my mother to delight her boring life.
yeanyeon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Dont give up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Special dedicate this song to my beloved mother and fatty brother:

Josh Groban - You Are Loved (Don't Give Up)

Don't give up
It's just the weight of the world
When your heart's heavy
I...I will lift it for you

Don't give up
Because you want to be heard
If silence keeps you
I...I will break it for you

Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don't give up
Because you are loved

Don't give up
It's just the hurt that you hide
When you lost inside
I...I will be there to find you

Don't give up
Because you want to burn bright
If darkness blinds you
I...I will shine to guide you

Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don't give up
Because you are loved

You are loved
Don't give up
It's just the weight of the world
Don't give up
Every one is to be heard
You are loved


p/s: my youngest brother been expell from school. Actualy I'm expeced that to happen. no suprise at all. If he continue like that, I hope the next person to take him is police.

Busy life again

It has been more than one week I'm away from my blog. I got no choice because library wireless very weak. I don't online unless is necessary. Konvokesyen Tamu Gadang-11 paper work is in the process now. Letters will be ready to fax and follow the details by calls.

I'm not really feeling well recently.Caught into headache and dizzy since Monday. Flue H1N1 is getting worse in UMS. Several students has been wearing mask to lectures or any where they want to travel. Majority of us still dont aware with the serious condition. As I know, there's 4 students have been certified positive to H1N1. the most stupid decision is they only quarantine all the students who has interact with all the patients but not the whole school. I really pray hard for all the people in the university. I don't want uni to be quarantined because I only can stay in my room.

Hope August pass faster.
I wish I'm in September now.